Friend?

No, 

No I don't need you to remind me, 

Yes, 

I know I am ruining my life, 

And your whatever doesn't phase me 

Because I know that it's all whatever

Yes, I understand that I have a problem

Yes,

I am proactive and seeking treatment

And no,

Your opinions don't make it easier 

So stop

Please 

Realize

That if you aren't helping,

You are hurting, 

And if you are hurting, 

You aren't helping

The struggle is real

I understand the consequence 

But no, you can't just tell addiction to stop

You can't simply press pause, rewind, play

Instead you live day to day, mess up often, work it out few 

And that's my truth

I don't need to be reminded

It hurts me more than it hurts you 

When you don't care, 

Keep your mouth shut, 

Opinions about me to yourself

Don't be rude 

Try to help, or don't, 

Whatever, but don't tell me you know better 

Until you've been thrown around 

At your addictions feet 

For so long you don't remember not

Sober as of yesterday, clean also, 

I don't need you to remind me I'm ruining my life 

I didn't need the whatever 

I know my life is messed

There is a reason I'm so stressed

I never would have chose this route 

No one ever would

I didn't need you to point out the obvious

I didn't need a sad completion

I needed a friend-

Something I didn't get in the end

~Megan Antoinette