Limit (Nearly Accidentally OD)

Nearly OD out of habit 

Who did I become?

Where did this come from 

I found a demon inside of me 

Lurking in dark hidden places

Yearning to be freed

How does one nearly accidentally OD? 

Forgetfulness fills my head 

Spinning me 

Asking why I'm not yet dead 

Simple ibuprofen, how an overdose 

Using it as a crutch I got confused

Now only 2 seems a dream 

Attainable by only memory

Remember: only take 2. 

You are not the same you 

Since when is needing therapy simplicity 

And that's all you were 

Or so thought the world

Anxiety torturing and taunting

Creatures raging at the misunderstanding 

Misjudgment fueling misery 

Making only 2 in true pain harder to take

Do I know a limit  

If I did could I play within it? 

But I did tonight 

I feel somehow not right 

Even though the 2 is all I truly did take 

I feel like the feeling is false; 

This guilt must be fake