Happy

Let's take a quick look, 

A little look see, 

A simple peak 

To understand what happiness is to me

And what it used to be 

It used to be fake euphoria, 

Complete fantasy

Call me crazy, 

But happiness used to be

It used to be described as temporary.

Fueled by fits of self misery, 

Too many pills, and too many drinks 

It used to be real, but not free

Happiness was caged, and costly 

Now happiness jumps from 10 to 3

Sky high to down deep 

Making me continue to seek 

To search for happiness where it used to be 

Mind and body out of sync 

Trying to find simplicity and happy 

But emotion isn't easy

Happy looks like the people around me 

Able to think and be with ease

To take in the little things

And see beauty 

That is to me as happiness seems 

No facade, no mask, no reason 

Simply forward moving; no freeze 

To just be 

Freely 

Simply 

Happy

Limit (Nearly Accidentally OD)

Nearly OD out of habit 

Who did I become?

Where did this come from 

I found a demon inside of me 

Lurking in dark hidden places

Yearning to be freed

How does one nearly accidentally OD? 

Forgetfulness fills my head 

Spinning me 

Asking why I'm not yet dead 

Simple ibuprofen, how an overdose 

Using it as a crutch I got confused

Now only 2 seems a dream 

Attainable by only memory

Remember: only take 2. 

You are not the same you 

Since when is needing therapy simplicity 

And that's all you were 

Or so thought the world

Anxiety torturing and taunting

Creatures raging at the misunderstanding 

Misjudgment fueling misery 

Making only 2 in true pain harder to take

Do I know a limit  

If I did could I play within it? 

But I did tonight 

I feel somehow not right 

Even though the 2 is all I truly did take 

I feel like the feeling is false; 

This guilt must be fake