Fly

As I stand
Somewhere
Underground
Where subways run
I hold back others
And hold back myself
But mostly others
Because I know
That people,
People jump
And they jump fast
Anxiety races
I'm scared
Feelings overwhelm
Do I jump or no
Alive or dead
I'll never know
Who I truly am
Where I belong
And where I stand
Knowing many died
Jumping in front
Like I want
Though do I want
I think I know
My life flashes
Before dull eyes
That are tired and weary
From living such ways
And living to die
But in this moment
I'm weak
And I want to jump
I wish to fly.