Tylenol Seven

If I think too hard about that day 

I remember only what you did say

It hurts more than you would think 

It put me on the brink 

'It's called Tylenol seven' he said 

It made me wish I were dead 

Bringing up my popping of pills

It made me have no power of will

It was that, and not something to save me 

That comment made me hate who I could be

No other words could have killed eight months of hard work

New scars seemed like a perk

So I cut myself hard and long 

Listening to depressing songs 

I created something new 

From the comments uttered by you

I hated myself and what I had done

I couldn't even see the sun 

I broke eight months of strength 

And went to every length

I couldn't handle your words

But nothing else was ever heard 

It taunted me when my wrists were  clean 

And turned them into something that couldn't be seen 

Covered by makeup, bracelets and sleeves

I thought nothing else relieves

So I cut and popped the pills more

And life became a chore

Your words gave me scars for my lifetime

Ones that cross a line 

Seven in a row

Marking how much I've since grown

It hurt knowing that your words made it worse 

To my well being they were a curse 

It seemed like you really didn't care 

And that you weren't really there 

If felt like you wanted me to do it 

And it was okay to dig myself a pit

I truthfully thought you agreed

And I longed to be freed 

But I thought you wanted me to hurt and cry

So I cut and took pills, I tried and I lied 

I said I was happy but felt destroyed 

I tried to fill the void

I was hurt and broken

I tried to take back all the words that had been spoken

But now I understand 

And can still call you my best friend

Because of this I am stronger 

And will be around much longer

It still causes me some pain 

But I no longer have trouble tying to explain

If I think too hard about that day 

I remember only what you did say

It hurts more than you would think 

It put me on the brink