Try

I try so hard to fight

I gave it all my might

And I ought to be 

That which I sought out to see

And it's not quite the way it seems 

I try to be free, 

However something's enraging me

And my goals seem out of sight

People look at me and say 'she'

She is the happy 

The one with only smiles it seems 

But I too cry

And die inside 

When faced with lessons I was taught

And the stricture I overcame and fought

And while it may seem gutsy, 

I show on my face some sort of glee

While there is pain in my eyes

No one seems to set their sights 

Though my dreams are beautifully wrought 

They always seem as not

I have seen the light 

And been places where I've been filled with fright

And I have lied, 

But more than that, I've tried