Reminders

Sitting in math is no easy feat 

When sitting next to hurt and deceit 

When someone reminds you of your past 

And makes your temper run fast

When someone jokes about your pain 

And reads aloud that which keeps you sane

And when someone tells you to do what's lame 

You can't seem to hide your shame

Heart shattered, and destroyed 

Mind on the field, it's deployed

Yourself filled with anxiety and fear

Something so close is no longer near 

A trigger pulled and set forth

The ammo aiming north

Waiting for it to explode from that which encases it

And trying to make a perfect hit

You cry heartache through heavy breaths

And feel angry when coming back to you are thoughts of death

Trying to forget the anxious feelings

And focus solely on happy dealings 

Breaths hung heavily in the frigid air 

Though no one seems to care 

Until you reach for a hand 

And it makes you feel like you can't 

Moments, seconds, and minutes of sorrow 

Giving you nothing to look forward to tomorrow 

And days go by when standing still

Forcing yourself up the invisible hill

And when he tells you to pop the pills, you think about it for hours, for days, 

With your mind in a haze

You remember even when it's long far gone

Painful memories turned back on

Sitting in math is no easy feat 

When sitting next to hurt and deceit 

When someone reminds you of your past 

And makes your temper run fast