Letter Poem #2~ Biggest Insecurity

You can be my biggest insecurity 

But you are the only one who can make me feel pretty 

Imprisoned in my thoughts

Without you my soul would rot 

My poems started as thoughts of you

 Things I wished had been true 

And while you might not believe or understand 

You'll always have the upper hand

I am disheartened to know 

That love will never be shown

But I want you to be happy, 

So I'll just let you be 

And while it makes me a bad friend, 

I will love you until the end

Because when you message me first, 

You remind me I can live unrehearsed 

And it shows that I am not just a bother 

That you will talk to me even when I don't

And that brings me contentedness 

 For now I'll call that progress 

 I know that wishing I knew what you think is wrong 

So I'll just keep along in this sing along song, 

Trying desperately to understand the intricate words 

And pay tribute to the artists beautiful work 

You make it easy to remember that I don't always come last

But hard to forget my unforgivable past 

And it's been a long time since I've felt so little understood 

Yet it makes me feel good 

You can be my biggest insecurity 

But you are the only one who can make me feel pretty 

Imprisoned in my thoughts

Without you my soul would rot