I Want To (Trust You)

It's hard to trust

When you can't even trust yourself 

When you've had no one to look up to 

But I want to be able to trust you

I care and I love and I try to protect

And what would you expect 

You are a big part of me, 

I care so much about you, you see 

Unknowing bringing anxiety and stress 

Making me an unforgivable mess

Showing me how to worry

Making my rationality blurry

I spent so long learning to trust

And I know it seems unjust 

But I love you more than I love myself

And I can't put my feelings on the top shelf

I hate myself for the feelings I can't control

And on all aspects it takes it's toll

And I find it hard to understand

Why I can't take life by the hand 

A foreign thing to me is trust

And it tends to be rusty

But I'll keep on trying 

And stop lying 

It's hard to trust

When you can't even trust yourself 

When you've had no one to look up to 

But I want to be able to trust you