Life's Battles

The way I feel, the way I am
I promise to you is not a sham
I only wish someone would believe
For I wish not to deceive

I hope only for someone to understand
For them only to hold out their hand
To know what it’s like to walk in my shoes
To have them see the inner bruise

My body neither beaten nor torn
Though still scarred and forlorn
The hands of evil those of my own
For in my mind I am alone

Hands trembling and heart racing
Prepared for that which I will be facing
The moment of pressure being that sign of relief
Cleanliness stolen by a thief

Simple red lines representing my battles
Ones that will make my brain forever rattle
The times I’ve won and the times I lost
I will always remember despite the cost

Though my battles are now over the struggles still persist
The pain and hardships shall not be dismissed
Pain no longer released through a blade
Only because you came to my aid

The Sting of Life

This beautiful silence hurts 

This feeling a painful sting  

Hate and love coming in spurts 

Memories and flashbacks an unpleasant ring 

Time goes by yet time seems still 

The fear of life still setting in

Even though it’s against my will

It’s the reason why I sin

The sun no longer seems to shine

Though there’s all this love inside my heart

Love that no longer feels like mine 

This moment sour yet tart

Wishing for love and happiness doesn’t work

Darkness always overwhelms me 

Being okay just an occasional perk

The object of life just to be free 

Feeling alone though surrounded by souls

These thoughts never far behind

In my heart there is a hole 

These days too long I do find

Alone in the night, my only company the stars 

Brain and heart not working together

Yet I know I have come far

It’ll cut through me like a knife forever

Sequel to 'The Mask'

My mask is now worn

Yet a new one is born

This mask again do cover 

Though not unto thine lover 

Shown once more, my mask will crack

It will shake and shatter ‘til I have it back 

This life of sorrow, misery and pain

Will taunt me until I have felt it’s strain

For times will be tough

And my masks life will be rough

I must be strong in the end

For in that moment, my mask will be my friend 

While being tested, I will find strength 

I shall make it to the greatest length 

This mask doth hide one thousand tears

Equally true to all my fears 

Each day goes by, my mask still shown 

Something I never have and never will condone

This mask wants only to take away from me 

Though I wish it would just let me be 

Hiding behind this mask makes me want to surrender 

No longer a happiness lender 

I know I shan't give up

No matter the amount this mask do corrupt

Overwhelmed

I just want to die
Can’t help but cry
This feeling repeating any times
No matter how many times I write these rhymes

Overwhelmed and stricken with fear
The moment near
Not a moment goes by
And I start acting shy

Nothing seems to be going right
But with myself I shall not fight
This doesn’t seem real
Nobody seems to care how I feel

Surrounded by people, yet so alone
My body quivering right down to the bone
Will this ever go away
The lines of life now frayed

Life so uncertain
Where has happiness been
The beauty suddenly gone
Life no longer like a song