Darkness's Taunt

Death mocking me in everyway, everyday.
Taunting me and haunting me
Sometimes I just don’t know what to say
When will fear and want let me be

Truth be told it scares me yet excites
Even when I say my prayer
Brain and heart in constant fights
Sometimes it is just too much to bear

Days will go by of happiness and joy
These days lasting for a short while before fading
The sadness creeps up in a manner that’s coy
Somehow nothing is aiding

Not sure what to do or where to go
I wander through thoughts and feelings
Trying to find the right emotion to show
By looking up at the ceiling

Seeing no answers provokes no thought
Only disappointment and realization
Life will be this way no matter the direction sought
Even with all this motivation

Death doth torment me one more day
Telling me it is the option of choice
But what is that for death to say
When tomorrow I will have my own voice

Wonderland

Life surrounds me and sounds confront me
Little do I hear of the trumpets sounds
Or also of the buzzing bee
As across the forest I make my rounds

Silence making a pitter patter
While a raindrop hits the grass
The lullaby of nature quite dapper
As its silence puts me in a trance

Eerie I do now feel
My heart seeming in the sky
A fantasy starts my skin begins to peel
Transformed I am a butterfly

Free of my cocoon I am free to fly
This is my chance for a new life
Wings constricted I wonder why
My feet won’t leave the ground, it cuts like a knife

Still the trance overwhelms my heart
Trying to leave the ground
Wanting to get past this part
Despite lack of sound

My heart finally understands and knows
Standing there in the deafening quiet
The knowledge begins to show
Brain and heart in riot

I lay my head back down
Once again to wake for reality
To the dreary woods I do frown
Before I close my eyes to see no actuality

Last Chance

This is my chance to shine
I’ll use this moment to fly
Days and days will go by
Waiting to lose my shy

The feelings of others will tremble
As I go into the temple
I close my eyes to pray
And to them I do say

What are you waiting for
When’s the day you’ll want more
Feelings across the board
What are you waiting for

To take all of me I will not allow
There will be no time to take a bow
I need to be prepared for what comes now
As we finish, I and thou

I will put on my strong face
I’ll make it to the end base
I will win this race
Because I am no disgrace

Reason

God give me a reason that I am still here
Lord give me a way that I won’t have to fear
Just teach me to be who you want me to be
And not just the girl standing here that you see

Yes I know I am beautiful to you
But one day I want to be beautiful to me too
You’re the only one who can make me feel this way
But until then I will see another day

You’ve given me the strength to carry on everyday
And I know I can trust you in everyway
But until I can learn to trust me too
All I will ever have is you

I will feel loved when you are with me
Yet abandoned when you’re not
I sure hope you do love me
Otherwise my soul do rot

I thought you gave me someone who loved me
Though I guess I thought wrong
He sure didn’t love me you see
I guess it was just you all along